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Posted: Sat Jun 11, 2016 9:39 pm
by Phara
:(

I don't know how much i'm going to approach this but it crosses my mind sometimes and it makes me so sad and there is a part of me that finds a comfort in laying myself raw before this community.

there is a reality to this board. When i post... people start to come out of their corners.

(this thread is a work in progress)


there would be people, women in particular on this board that would hold an envy of that kind of power. Two come to mind. I'm just literally typing these words and coming back to them later as I try to use my forum for a therapy of sorts. and in the process begin to build the beginning stages of vjour.me


//Phara

Posted: Sun Jun 12, 2016 9:03 am
by Gwenno
Yes, this place is more vibrant when you are around, you are the glitter, the crown only fits you and the robe will strangle any other that will try and wear it. Stick your crochet hooks into their envious eyes and use the banhammer if you want (Or just for fun, banning to freak people out was a thing here as I recall)
You are Phara, fucking queen Phara, you went above and beyond for what you stand for, where most of us would probably freak out and roll over, you faced the storm and not let yourself get compromised.
Respect and awe is all I have for you. I get fucking starstruck every time you acknowledge my existence on fb, you are real, you are over the top, you are an inspiration, you are the queen.
So say we all

Posted: Sun Jun 12, 2016 7:26 pm
by Brewtality
Assalamu allaykum.

Posted: Mon Jun 13, 2016 11:31 am
by Jax
I'm the kind of bitch who immediately wants to know who the two are. lol

I know it ain't me. I'm a backstage kinda gal. ;-) I can think of one person from the past who definitely acted like Queen II for a bit there though. I honestly can't remember how things ended with her though...

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 3:03 am
by Candeeoke
Jax wrote:I'm the kind of bitch who immediately wants to know who the two are. lol

I wanted to know too! I know one person for sure...

You are the Queen Phara -we adore you. <3

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 3:59 am
by Phara
there were plenty

meiling, eve were the two in the head.

honeymama, liz the old lit mod, pam, citizen erased etc...

this is all 1.0 btw.

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 4:24 am
by Jax
Ah, I thought maybe Honey would be in there. God, I forgot about Pam. But I was thinking Krazee myself. Did things end badly with her, I cannot even remember. I think she left before everything happened though. My brain is a sieve. :-/


Edit: Of course she might be on the evolution right now and I don't even know it. O_o

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 1:46 pm
by Corgimom
For what it's worth- I am not that liz but I remember the 3 well.

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 5:13 pm
by Phara
Gwenno wrote:Yes, this place is more vibrant when you are around, you are the glitter, the crown only fits you and the robe will strangle any other that will try and wear it. Stick your crochet hooks into their envious eyes and use the banhammer if you want (Or just for fun, banning to freak people out was a thing here as I recall)
You are Phara, fucking queen Phara, you went above and beyond for what you stand for, where most of us would probably freak out and roll over, you faced the storm and not let yourself get compromised.
Respect and awe is all I have for you. I get fucking starstruck every time you acknowledge my existence on fb, you are real, you are over the top, you are an inspiration, you are the queen.
So say we all

I read this the night that you posted it and it keeps coming back to me. It made me smile so hard and kinda in awe, you know? Girl you made me change my title and "Dark Sunshine and Hard Candy" has held court for about 6 years. I want to embroider Sentence #1 on a pillow and squeal every time I see it.

You mention being starstruck when I'd "acknowledge" you on fb. Girl... Like I said to Philly... there are only a handful of people I even consider real there. I'm so happy that you were able to see through the nonsense that is a 5000 person friend list and reach out to this stranger across the world the way that you did. I don't know. I don't like that platform. I find it much harder than here. The irony in that where you use your real name, everything seems so much more fake and horrendous. It's here where I all Margaret Philly and you Gwenno rather than Gwen that I feel that our real selves show and we can be so much more intimate so much more quickly.

So say we all indeed.


So much love girl.


Battlestar Galactica started this beast. lolz. Cool. I'm like the President. Without the cancer (ever please) and all the mushroom trips. hahahaha.

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 5:17 pm
by Phara
Jax wrote:Ah, I thought maybe Honey would be in there. God, I forgot about Pam. But I was thinking Krazee myself. Did things end badly with her, I cannot even remember. I think she left before everything happened though. My brain is a sieve. :-/


Edit: Of course she might be on the evolution right now and I don't even know it. O_o

Nah Krazee and me were always good. A lot of people thought that actually cuz I let her be nuts. But it was literally in her name. She was getting ready for PhD and it was time for her to step back. I wish she was still around actually. I would love to have her back. She was a bit brutal but honestly she was one of the most loyal. Her and Candee have a ton of similarities but Candee has the more gentle bit. Krazee was a bit more my mold but a tiny bit less carasmatic. I think that's why Candee was loved where people were more wary of Krazee.

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 5:18 pm
by Phara
Corgimom wrote:For what it's worth- I am not that liz but I remember the 3 well.

lol, that's why i mentioned lit mod. for some damn reason her forum name escaped me.

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 6:21 pm
by Philly
Phara wrote:
Gwenno wrote:Yes, this place is more vibrant when you are around, you are the glitter, the crown only fits you and the robe will strangle any other that will try and wear it. Stick your crochet hooks into their envious eyes and use the banhammer if you want (Or just for fun, banning to freak people out was a thing here as I recall)
You are Phara, fucking queen Phara, you went above and beyond for what you stand for, where most of us would probably freak out and roll over, you faced the storm and not let yourself get compromised.
Respect and awe is all I have for you. I get fucking starstruck every time you acknowledge my existence on fb, you are real, you are over the top, you are an inspiration, you are the queen.
So say we all

I read this the night that you posted it and it keeps coming back to me. It made me smile so hard and kinda in awe, you know? Girl you made me change my title and "Dark Sunshine and Hard Candy" has held court for about 6 years. I want to embroider Sentence #1 on a pillow and squeal every time I see it.

You mention being starstruck when I'd "acknowledge" you on fb. Girl... Like I said to Philly... there are only a handful of people I even consider real there. I'm so happy that you were able to see through the nonsense that is a 5000 person friend list and reach out to this stranger across the world the way that you did. I don't know. I don't like that platform. I find it much harder than here. The irony in that where you use your real name, everything seems so much more fake and horrendous. It's here where I all Margaret Philly and you Gwenno rather than Gwen that I feel that our real selves show and we can be so much more intimate so much more quickly.

So say we all indeed.


So much love girl.


Battlestar Galactica started this beast. lolz. Cool. I'm like the President. Without the cancer (ever please) and all the mushroom trips. hahahaha.


N now I'm star struck Lol. Anybody can get acknowledged on fb but when ppl mention you on ninja, thats something

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 6:50 pm
by girlapaloo
Phara wrote:
Corgimom wrote:For what it's worth- I am not that liz but I remember the 3 well.

lol, that's why i mentioned lit mod. for some damn reason her forum name escaped me.


Was it LoRandir or something like that? LRandir LorRandir

Anyway, I wouldn't dream of being queen. There could never be another Phara. :p

Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2016 9:23 pm
by Phara
ok, so im a strange broad

"never sang your song"


i'm drunk and high as fuck btw



"please tell me why do lovers behave in such a way"

sometimes i feel that god is talking to me and he sends me his Holy Spirit in the form of the music that is coming at me

It's his voice

This is what's going on in my life exactly right now



Love means to never to say that you're sorry

How could you hurt the one you love.....

then...

it's not love.



I'm a baby

i belive in this notion called love.

"Love is... never to say that you're sorry how could you hurt the one the one you love

just like you dont care, no no in such a way"





i loved these women more than anything.


le' sigh the greatest betrayals tbh.

Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 8:25 am
by Gwenno
Philly wrote:
Phara wrote:
Gwenno wrote:Yes, this place is more vibrant when you are around, you are the glitter, the crown only fits you and the robe will strangle any other that will try and wear it. Stick your crochet hooks into their envious eyes and use the banhammer if you want (Or just for fun, banning to freak people out was a thing here as I recall)
You are Phara, fucking queen Phara, you went above and beyond for what you stand for, where most of us would probably freak out and roll over, you faced the storm and not let yourself get compromised.
Respect and awe is all I have for you. I get fucking starstruck every time you acknowledge my existence on fb, you are real, you are over the top, you are an inspiration, you are the queen.
So say we all

I read this the night that you posted it and it keeps coming back to me. It made me smile so hard and kinda in awe, you know? Girl you made me change my title and "Dark Sunshine and Hard Candy" has held court for about 6 years. I want to embroider Sentence #1 on a pillow and squeal every time I see it.

You mention being starstruck when I'd "acknowledge" you on fb. Girl... Like I said to Philly... there are only a handful of people I even consider real there. I'm so happy that you were able to see through the nonsense that is a 5000 person friend list and reach out to this stranger across the world the way that you did. I don't know. I don't like that platform. I find it much harder than here. The irony in that where you use your real name, everything seems so much more fake and horrendous. It's here where I all Margaret Philly and you Gwenno rather than Gwen that I feel that our real selves show and we can be so much more intimate so much more quickly.

So say we all indeed.


So much love girl.


Battlestar Galactica started this beast. lolz. Cool. I'm like the President. Without the cancer (ever please) and all the mushroom trips. hahahaha.


N now I'm star struck Lol. Anybody can get acknowledged on fb but when ppl mention you on ninja, thats something


Fb is a weird place, so many 'friends' I have there, real life friends that never ever respond, and you aren't anybody, you are Phara, IDK, fb just does strange things to perception. But you changed title, you want to embroider? You are making me think about sitting down, taking time and start writing (in English) again.
So many feels. Idk what to type any more. Brainfog.

Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2016 10:23 pm
by Phara
josh o_O